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Saturday, December 10, 2005

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 20:21:59 GMT

ello ello.

new entry...

so, christmas is comin up. that should be fuckin spectacular. especially seeing as im not christian, and my family's all catholic. yay!. my job is goin pretty dandy..and i've come to terms with the fact that i naturally wanna hurt people..physically.. if i have injured anyone...i am sorry..im working on it..bear with me... anywho's..this winter seems promising, 1 2 hr delay and no school last friday...very niiice..im considering all this bullshit my parents have been tellin me, about how if i wanna go, i can..that's a fuckin joke..i wiiish i wiish. i can't stop this feeling...it won't goo aawwwaay..i just want for once, to be able to do exactly what i want..have control of my OWN life, and im sick of all this shit that im not allowed to be discontent because my family's not dirt poor living off beans and rice. i honestly don't give a fuck about material things...or money.. i just want some freedom.

peace love and anarchy -GAb

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 00:08:19 GMT

happy fuckin birthday to me...

my eye hurts..my body is in a miserable state, and i just wanna be happy..

ever take a step back and look at your life? and realize that most of it's spend looking forward for something else..not wAhoO! another day, but only 20 days until so and so..im just realizing this, and truth is i have the most fun when i just randomly do stiff..

fuckin ell, im through with this shit.

peace love and anarchy -GAb

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 23:57:19 GMT

wow.. i never come here anymore. school has begun. not too bad. i feel a bit 'betrayed' by a few people, but that's ok. i have 3 jobs lined up and im going to start going around and doing something about it. last week was officially '90's nostalgia music week' and this week is '80's movie week' so im having a major movie fest at my house on friday, but today was the 'prefest' haha. fun stuff. and next week is 'dirt rock week' mmm..dirtrock. my life has become a sitcom, and i now casually talk like the gilmore girls, not on purpose, these thoughts and observations just come out, and the people i talk to do it too. oh man, anywho's im going insane and i don't know why. i think the themed weeks might be a sign, and well, if you don't see me in a few months i'll probobly be in an institution. yeh, im not really kidding, but im pretty chill right now. pop culture's pretty sweet. and i love guitar class. my life is packed right now and i might have to drop weekend guitar. who knows..anywho's im out. school tomorrow. peace love and anarchy -GAb

EDIT: motherfucking shit in the name of all that is right in the world..what the FUCK> did anyone hear?? wasted USA is CANCELLED?? those motherfuckers. there was probobly some legal issues surrounding it. i hope it's just this year because in a few years i was hoping to fly there for it. so first, Warped Tour gets invaded, then hellfest is cancelled, then CBGB's starts closing down, now WASTED?? noooo. i hope Operation CeaseFire isn't cancelled. omg, my sister JUST found out about it, she's all psyched about anti-flag, and she won't take me. it's motherfuckerin wayne cramer/bouncing soles!/depotts ( i think)/anti-flag..i'd pay her to take me. hmm..maybe i could take the bus. anyways, music is dying..what the fuck, man?

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 17:27:13 GMT

update. i wanna fucking kill someone.
school in 2 weeks. i don't know my schedule yet, so i don't know who the fuck else will be in my classes. we had these guys come to cut down a bunch of trees in our yard today. my mom took off work and was running around looking out windows all excited, and wakes me up, comes in my room at around 8 fucking 15 am, and is about to open my windows so i could watch this loud, annoying, shit. so, im like, 'get the hell out.' and she leaves. she does this the whole day, in excitement. i told her 'yeh, don't you just love watching the destrution of life?'..pretty fuckin annoying ..so by then i couldn't go back to sleep, so i read my new book. which is just filthy. i mean it is an absolute piece of trash, and yet so wonderfully intriguing that i cannot put it down. i mean, wow. it's funny, because the title is true in so many ways. oral history. ok. irony...anyways. last night i was listening to a combination of hip-hop, ani difranco, and chumbawamba. i had only heard 'self evident' by her. but i was captivated. so i listened to some more. then i felt like listening to some public enemy and MC Paul barman. very good stuff. i dunno what came over me. but i was just in a mood. then i stayed awake and watched chapelle's show. ha. and i came up with a new song for guitar, plus another one, just lyrics called 'bored as fuck'. not very original, but it seemed pretty right at the time.

EDIT: BULLET TO FUCKING BINARY..that's all i can say. if you mention the words 'school' 'supplies' 'homework' 'teacher' or 'education' around me, i will fucking murder you and eat your offspring..and i have enough people to piss me off. i need my sanity..but i can feel it slipping..again..
peace love and anarchy -GAb

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 18:49:57 GMT

ello. yesterday was pretty fun. zoe, kelly, and i went to sheri's house and then walked to this creek which was cool, except for the fact that gravel is hard to walk on barefoot, and i felt like we were in the middle of a massive spider web with its offspring hatching and eating one another before our eyes..but the sand was nice and the water was refreshing.. then we walked to anh-thu's house, and the five of us went back to sheri's, and then i had to leave..so, i painted my wall this morning and i think i may be done. it's a goldish green color and it looks very..modernish. i really love it.. anywho's i might go to a show with my sister this friday..3 finger salute and uh, i can't remember the others.. perty cool, and my relatives are coming saturday. not too bad. well..later ..peace love and anarchy -GAb

Friday, July 15, 2005

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 23:40:54 GMT

ello.. summer.. there's this music festival at the manassas home depot that i might possibly consider going to...but i dunno..depends..a few bands i wanna see. 10 am- 4pm saturday and sunday. mmm...awesomeness. i've developed a love for cooking and i love it. yeh, just thouoght i'd say that..tis' my new passion. i saw charlie and the chocolate factory today with sheri, kelly, and zoe and it was fucking weird i tell ya. but it was soo right..and i really liked it.anywho's i bought a mic. for my computer so i've been recording random shit, and i am trying to accept my annoying voice..eekk. but its really cool, because i've never had a computer mic before..soo, i have guitar tomorrow and i haven't practiced a whole lot with my string muting..i shall be off..peace love and anarchy -GAb

Monday, July 04, 2005

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 18:06:26 GMT

i'm updating. alright summer's been ok so far. pretty much just working out and playing guitar and dieting and buying cds..and that's ok. so, today's july 4th and im not celebrating or anything. but i want to set up some small firecrackers to explod things. when my parents aren't home. damn, i should hide them. i'm fuckin tired now. i have to go work out soon. i don't have a fuckin clue what to say. ohhh things im looking forward to: part of the patriot act expiring, concert in april (maryland) < most likely can't go, possibly warped tour, possibly a digital camcorder, cd releases, uh...yeh. nothing more. i should go. peace love and anarchy -GAb

Friday, June 24, 2005

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 00:53:04 GMT

holy fucking shit. this school year is over.. and i swear i think im gonna fucking cry because i am soo happy. im sure no one actually knew the random shit that i went through this year, and i will leave it to rot in the past..not to mention i have some flippin sweet plans for this summer. but hey, good times with friends, random laughing, and sheep moments will live on. im so fucking psyched i think i might just ramble. or not. anywho's last day of school today, went home with kelly, then the 'gang' and i went to this end of the year party, and it was very cool. soo...goals for this summer. (wow..i'm following a fuckin list)..get better at skateboarding. play guitar 2 hours a day so i can form a punk rock band sometime in the next 2 years..(im so tired of makng up a guitar part and vocals..and then..it just..stopping..but, whatever..) start my magazine. (NOOO, it is not a personal zine..my sister called me a stupid emo kid with a zine..gah. my family knows i hate emo) read more radical poetry and writing (percy shelly, david edelshtat, sp?, kahil gibran..etc..) study anarchy more...go to some shows..uhh..get into some actually work down in dc, start book on philosophy, go on my diet and lose weight. fun shit. um..not grow old and burn out..like my sister who tries to rat me out for things i haven't even done...yet..so, i think that's it. yeh. it is.. peace love and anarchy -GAb

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 20:04:20 GMT

ello. wow. i have one week of school left, and this weekend was really fun. i went to my first concert. well, show, but it still counts. some local bands.. with kelly and sheri.. i was kinda pissed cause there were some kids there who were around 5-12 with their parents, and well...weird..but it was Soundriot's last show. and it was flippin amazing. all of the other bands that played were pop-punk/emo, and no one really moved a lot, except one lame attempt at a mosh pit. and i tried to get into the music, but it wasn't easy. i was surprised at how good they were, considering the genre. then, after the pop-punk bands played.. my mom comes into the building...and i freakin flipped out. i was like, how the hell did you get here? so she says that my sister wants to go home, so we have to leave at 10..(after they had dropped my friends and i off, they never went home..) we didn't actually go until 10:25..hehe. because by then soundriot hadn't played yet. then they played. and it was really awesome. people were actually moving more. i jumped around a lot and headbanged and man, my head hurt like a bitch. it was a lot easier to jump to heavier music. some kids tried to start a mosh like 5 times, but then this guy kept breaking them up. lame. after they finished playing.. everyone went up and hugged the band. and i hugged the hot bassist dude..hehe..and we had to leave. i don't even think 33 west got to play. overall, it was flippin amazing to hear them play before they broke up..so glad i could go. well, later..peace love and anarchy -GAb

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 23:13:36 GMT

ello...alright. i took this quiz, and found it extremely funny.

How straight edge are you?
brought to you by Quizilla i'm not really straightedge, i just don't smoke or drink. i sure as hell am not devoted to it. i just find it hilarious that i got 100%.i do like 'corrupting' people's head..i've been spreading propoganda in my friend's yearbooks..whoops..hehe anyways..school's almost over. i neeeed summer. blah. last minute projects..finals next week. concert this weekend. tired....oo..listen to Brain Failure. Chinese punk rock..hehe..ok, i have to go. peace love and anarchy -GAb